Day 17 and counting

Today I made a conscious decision to drink more water. I don't think I made my quota but I was close. I need to be sure to finish at least a gallon of water within two days while I am at work and drink water before I leave the house and when I get home. That way I will surely be covered.

The one thing that's making me irritated however is the fact that I am breaking out on my face like a teenager amongst other things that are going on with my body. I hate it. Susan, my fabulous nutritionist seems to think that it may be because of toxins leaving my body. She said sometimes things have to get worse before they get better. I think I can accept that for now. I think.

Anyway, I know I mentioned it before but I have a serious jones for apples and peanut butter. I think about it all the time and can't wait till my morning snack so I can have it. Weird. At some point however, rest assured, the sight of this mid morning snack of mine will disgust me. I think it's because I have the tendency to play things out until they are dead. Then I hate it.

I hope I never hate this snack. On a separate note, as much as I thought I would miss bread, (like Ike missed Tina), I have to be totally honest and say that it's really not that deep. Don't get me wrong, I love it, sometimes worship it, but I am ok without it.

I'm learning so much about myself and what I can and cannot do, what my limits are and aren't. I'm actually looking forward to keeping this plan going. I look forward to that blog post title that says Day 60, 70, 80: I feel good about the fact that I've lost 10, 15, 20 pounds.

Well my friends, I must go and get my beauty rest. Getting enough sleep (at least 7 -8 hours) is part of the plan as well.

Deuces!

Day 16. Don't Give up Now!

I've been going out a lot lately and I need to chill. I know I can make good decisions while being out but for some reason I find myself making up for the fact that I'm not eating bread or sugar. I make it up by drinking more wine and eating the occasional fried chicken. Aside from the fact that I don't have money like that, I need to stay at home and have more time for myself to contemplate the meaning of life. (or not) Anyway I did pretty decent today. I had some grilled chicken that was a little too cooked from Busboys and Poets and two glasses of wine...For some reason drinking wine gives me the munchies so I came home and fell off the wagon and ate peanut butter and jelly on an English muffin.... I just need to take my tail to bed.

Nighty night.

Day 15. I Confess.

You remember me talking about starting the day with good intentions (the other day no less?) Well, that's what I did... I stuck to my plan all the way to the end until...... That cookie was sitting there and it said "oooooh Sandy" I tried to run but it called me again and as I inched myself away from the table it grabbed a hold of me and shoved itself in my mouth. Then another, then another, then another (thank God they were the little Entenmann's cookies). I also gave myself permission to have an Italian Soda (but not two, which I had) I think it was the excitement of the night. Not making excuses, I don't think.

Well, here's to tomorrow Lord willing and the creek don't rise..... I guess my having french toast this weekend ain't gonna happen huh? It's ok. I will extend myself some grace and keep it movin.


President Obama says YES I CAN!!! :)

Day 14. I'm in it to Win it!

I spoke to my fabulous wellness coach/nutritionist today and we went over the good the bad and they ugly as it relates to how I've been doing on the plan. She was so proud of me for hanging in there and I am too!

We talked about what I need to do to step up my game over the next two weeks and of course that was drinking more water water water and getting in my daily exercise (which I've been slacking off on). We also talked about watching my portion sizes. I wish I would have watched it last night as I ate that big ole piece of salmon (yummy).

Anyway, I'm staying the course because I'm in it to win it! Here's to another day my friends!

Day 13. Trying to stay Encouraged.

Today was good but I am trying to stay encouraged because my thoughts sometimes turn on me. Not good. The other day, I was excited about loosing a few pounds and only to, a few days later think about how far I actually have to go to get to my goal weight. As a result, I was a little discouraged . When I get discouraged unfortunately I get sad and when I get sad, I eat. This keeps the vicious cycle going. Nevertheless, I didn't eat this time around which I'm happy about. Eating is the wall I hide behind when I am sad and I don't want to talk about stuff but I'm trying to change that. I will change that. (Thanks for the reminder Rev. Max about remembering to speak life).

Anyway, I am not sure what is up with this fried chicken thing. I don't eat it at all really but as of late, I've had it quite a few times.... I'll have to nip that in the bud. And quick!

I stayed on track today which was good, but as I always say, I must step up my game.

I've decided today that I'm going to stay on this plan (but a somewhat altered version) for the rest of the year. I need to get serious about this thing and fight for my health.

Well friends, I'm getting tired and must go read so I will chat with ya tomorrow!

GObama 08!

Day 12. Planning Really is EVERYTHING

Even though I was not on my A game this weekend, I've decided not to beat myself up and simply move forward. Today, I was a bit, I mean, a lot off schedule as well. Not to mention I've known I was taking this road trip to West VA for a bit now. I really could have prepared and I didn't. Because of that, I suffered. There really wasn't a plan today to be honest . Not really. I stuck to it a bit and make sure that I had only turkey and green beans at the wedding reception I attended and I had some greens as a snack today but I pretty much ate at crazy times. And, or course I had my bread today even though I probably didn't "deserve it." I'm not saying that to be to hard on myself but I really could have done without it today. Really. Anyway, I know better for the next time to wait to the last minute.

I would like to give a shout out to another accountability partner of mine, Kia! She's been great at encouraging me and being a cheerleader on the sidelines as this is really hard for me, but something I know is attainable.


12 days down......

Day 11. Confessions of a Halloween Party Goer.

I started the day out with good intentions. Like most of us do when we are trying to accomplish a goal, I found myself this time, more than any other, slipping off the wagon. I admit the whole Halloween thing got to me a little and I had one baby tootsie roll and one baby snicker. I had this urge that I choose not to control. You notice I say choose not to. That's growth for me because typically I would just say " I couldn't help myself" or " It was calling my name." I guess the best part of that, if there is a best part, is that I allowed myself to have just a couple and not the whole freaking bowl. That's growth too considering those are two of my favorite candies.

But that's not it. I got a little off schedule and I found myself really hungry at the end of the day so I was trying to eat too much. I even tried to sneak (well, I was successful the second time) a chicken wing from this party I was at. Fried no less and way to late to be eating. One of my accountability partners (thanks Bangaly!) was there with me at the party and he made it his duty to remind me of my goals and the things that I need to do to achieve them. While it can be nerve wrecking at times, it's good to know that someone cares to the extent that they will even snatch whatever they need to out of my hand.

While I've given myself permission to incorporate a moderate amount of red wine into this regime, I also veered from that a bit and had two mixed drinks (small ones at least) that had like 6 or 7 different ingredients (or more) which made it strong and sweet. It wasn't a total bust but this far into the game I need to be fighting for this.

I think that's it. For now.