Day 41. If Ever

If ever there were a wagon to fall off of, you best believe I fell off of it. My over indulgence with food started last Wednesday at my 10 year anniversary lunch and has lasted through Thanksgiving now through the weekend after Thanksgiving. Deep sigh.......



If ever there was a groove to get back into, you best believe I am going to get back into it! I'm done with beating myself up, I can't do it, although I did a little bit yesterday and today.

Well, I will be sure report to you all this coming week to tell you all how great I am doing with exercising and eating well. :)

Day 34... You know your slacking off when...

You say you are not going to have cake till your birthday and you've had it twice in the past week.

You say you are only going to eat bread on the weekend and you eat it almost everyday for a week.

You drink 6 glasses of wine in one night.

You eat two snicker bars in one week.

You only exercise 2 days a week.

You live to eat as opposed to eat to live.

Hi my name is Sandy and I'm a carboholic. :(

Day 28... A Long Way to Go!

Had my follow up call with my nutritionist. As I stated b4 she is great! I think I am addicted to her now. I got back on the plan yesterday and Lord knows I have a long way to go. For the 1st time however I can truly say that I am excited about becoming whole and healthy. This is truly going to take some work on my part though which is the challenge. It's going to take a complete change in my attitude, in how I talk to myself and how I decide to honor my body with regards to eating and working out. I also realize this is going to take me a while due to certain health issues I deal with but I am not going to give up. I can't I have too many people out there like yourselves pulling for me.

Peace
Sandy

Days 24, 25, 26 and Today Day 27.

So, its been a few days and yes I will say that I have allowed myself a few liberties. I wouldn't call it being bad however. I don't want to say that anymore because it's not about being bad or good it's about choices and over these past few days I've allowed myself to eat a few sweet snacks and at least one meal a day has been something that I've choosen to eat that was outside of the "plan".

I don't regret it nor will I look back. I am on a mission and this mission may take me some months, it may take me a year, but gosh darn it I will get there. Thanks for your encouragement along the way I still need it!

Praying that you are well!

Day 23.. Gimme A Break

I'm not sure if what happened this afternoon was really considered a break or if it was just a dumb move on my part. I allowed myself some sweets and of course I took it to another level. Although food is not the same as drugs I really do feel like I had a temporary relapse. I don't think cookies, well more than one big double tree cookie, was in the plan nor should it have been but hey, I must move on! Don't dwell in the past right? Now, I can certainly learn from the past and I will, I have but I have to keep going.

Today is a new day! With each new day I have another chance, so here's to another chance!

Day 22. Enjoying Life

It feels good to be on the other side of 21 Days... I took a break tonight for dinner. I had veggie lasagna, bread, Bacardi and wine, yummy salad with corn and other things I wasn't able to have and it's ok. It's all about moderation and enjoying life. Me and B spent some quality time with some friends who recently lost their father and it was a good thing to be able to share good times and bring some cheer to grieving friends over some yummy food and drinks.

With that said, I'm a little loopie so I'm going to bed!

Day 21. I've Arrived, or Have I?

I never would have thought I would have made it this far. I still have a loooooooong way to go because by no means did I do everything perfect.

I still need to:
work on my water intake
step up my exercise
stop over compensating with fried foods
watch my portion sizes
watch my eating after 7

While I am proud that I've gotten this far, I am going to keep going. I have a long life ahead of me and I desire to be healthy the rest of those days.

I say yes to healthy living!
I say yes to eating well!

21 days down a lifetime to go!!!

Day 20. ?????

Started out good today

Middle of the day was cool

Then there was the end of the day

Not bad but not great.

Probably more bad.

Pray for your friend Sandy please.

Day 19. Say Something to the People

I decided to give myself permission to have grits for breakfast. They were yummy.

The day wasn't bad other than that. My accountability chick checked in with me and I gave her a run down of what was going on with me and she simply encouraged me to keep going. As we know, lay low on the sugar, which I have been, lay low on the bread, which I have been for the most part, drink my water (at least half my body weight...uuuugh) and get in the exercise. It's all about lifestyle changes. Mine is not coming without its challenges of course..


To the bat cave batman!

Day 18. I had a Tummy Ache

Day 18 was cool I reckon. I still hate the fact that my face looks like a rocky road..... I did eat dinner really late though and the portion size was out of control (thanks to Bangaly:) but it was good and everything fell within the eating plan. I will say however that it messed with my stomach allll night. That's all I'll say about that..... Oh, I did try some super yummy collard green spring rolls too. They were soooo good. If you are ever on U street in DC stop by Indulj and try them out.

Peace

Day 17 and counting

Today I made a conscious decision to drink more water. I don't think I made my quota but I was close. I need to be sure to finish at least a gallon of water within two days while I am at work and drink water before I leave the house and when I get home. That way I will surely be covered.

The one thing that's making me irritated however is the fact that I am breaking out on my face like a teenager amongst other things that are going on with my body. I hate it. Susan, my fabulous nutritionist seems to think that it may be because of toxins leaving my body. She said sometimes things have to get worse before they get better. I think I can accept that for now. I think.

Anyway, I know I mentioned it before but I have a serious jones for apples and peanut butter. I think about it all the time and can't wait till my morning snack so I can have it. Weird. At some point however, rest assured, the sight of this mid morning snack of mine will disgust me. I think it's because I have the tendency to play things out until they are dead. Then I hate it.

I hope I never hate this snack. On a separate note, as much as I thought I would miss bread, (like Ike missed Tina), I have to be totally honest and say that it's really not that deep. Don't get me wrong, I love it, sometimes worship it, but I am ok without it.

I'm learning so much about myself and what I can and cannot do, what my limits are and aren't. I'm actually looking forward to keeping this plan going. I look forward to that blog post title that says Day 60, 70, 80: I feel good about the fact that I've lost 10, 15, 20 pounds.

Well my friends, I must go and get my beauty rest. Getting enough sleep (at least 7 -8 hours) is part of the plan as well.

Deuces!

Day 16. Don't Give up Now!

I've been going out a lot lately and I need to chill. I know I can make good decisions while being out but for some reason I find myself making up for the fact that I'm not eating bread or sugar. I make it up by drinking more wine and eating the occasional fried chicken. Aside from the fact that I don't have money like that, I need to stay at home and have more time for myself to contemplate the meaning of life. (or not) Anyway I did pretty decent today. I had some grilled chicken that was a little too cooked from Busboys and Poets and two glasses of wine...For some reason drinking wine gives me the munchies so I came home and fell off the wagon and ate peanut butter and jelly on an English muffin.... I just need to take my tail to bed.

Nighty night.

Day 15. I Confess.

You remember me talking about starting the day with good intentions (the other day no less?) Well, that's what I did... I stuck to my plan all the way to the end until...... That cookie was sitting there and it said "oooooh Sandy" I tried to run but it called me again and as I inched myself away from the table it grabbed a hold of me and shoved itself in my mouth. Then another, then another, then another (thank God they were the little Entenmann's cookies). I also gave myself permission to have an Italian Soda (but not two, which I had) I think it was the excitement of the night. Not making excuses, I don't think.

Well, here's to tomorrow Lord willing and the creek don't rise..... I guess my having french toast this weekend ain't gonna happen huh? It's ok. I will extend myself some grace and keep it movin.


President Obama says YES I CAN!!! :)

Day 14. I'm in it to Win it!

I spoke to my fabulous wellness coach/nutritionist today and we went over the good the bad and they ugly as it relates to how I've been doing on the plan. She was so proud of me for hanging in there and I am too!

We talked about what I need to do to step up my game over the next two weeks and of course that was drinking more water water water and getting in my daily exercise (which I've been slacking off on). We also talked about watching my portion sizes. I wish I would have watched it last night as I ate that big ole piece of salmon (yummy).

Anyway, I'm staying the course because I'm in it to win it! Here's to another day my friends!

Day 13. Trying to stay Encouraged.

Today was good but I am trying to stay encouraged because my thoughts sometimes turn on me. Not good. The other day, I was excited about loosing a few pounds and only to, a few days later think about how far I actually have to go to get to my goal weight. As a result, I was a little discouraged . When I get discouraged unfortunately I get sad and when I get sad, I eat. This keeps the vicious cycle going. Nevertheless, I didn't eat this time around which I'm happy about. Eating is the wall I hide behind when I am sad and I don't want to talk about stuff but I'm trying to change that. I will change that. (Thanks for the reminder Rev. Max about remembering to speak life).

Anyway, I am not sure what is up with this fried chicken thing. I don't eat it at all really but as of late, I've had it quite a few times.... I'll have to nip that in the bud. And quick!

I stayed on track today which was good, but as I always say, I must step up my game.

I've decided today that I'm going to stay on this plan (but a somewhat altered version) for the rest of the year. I need to get serious about this thing and fight for my health.

Well friends, I'm getting tired and must go read so I will chat with ya tomorrow!

GObama 08!

Day 12. Planning Really is EVERYTHING

Even though I was not on my A game this weekend, I've decided not to beat myself up and simply move forward. Today, I was a bit, I mean, a lot off schedule as well. Not to mention I've known I was taking this road trip to West VA for a bit now. I really could have prepared and I didn't. Because of that, I suffered. There really wasn't a plan today to be honest . Not really. I stuck to it a bit and make sure that I had only turkey and green beans at the wedding reception I attended and I had some greens as a snack today but I pretty much ate at crazy times. And, or course I had my bread today even though I probably didn't "deserve it." I'm not saying that to be to hard on myself but I really could have done without it today. Really. Anyway, I know better for the next time to wait to the last minute.

I would like to give a shout out to another accountability partner of mine, Kia! She's been great at encouraging me and being a cheerleader on the sidelines as this is really hard for me, but something I know is attainable.


12 days down......

Day 11. Confessions of a Halloween Party Goer.

I started the day out with good intentions. Like most of us do when we are trying to accomplish a goal, I found myself this time, more than any other, slipping off the wagon. I admit the whole Halloween thing got to me a little and I had one baby tootsie roll and one baby snicker. I had this urge that I choose not to control. You notice I say choose not to. That's growth for me because typically I would just say " I couldn't help myself" or " It was calling my name." I guess the best part of that, if there is a best part, is that I allowed myself to have just a couple and not the whole freaking bowl. That's growth too considering those are two of my favorite candies.

But that's not it. I got a little off schedule and I found myself really hungry at the end of the day so I was trying to eat too much. I even tried to sneak (well, I was successful the second time) a chicken wing from this party I was at. Fried no less and way to late to be eating. One of my accountability partners (thanks Bangaly!) was there with me at the party and he made it his duty to remind me of my goals and the things that I need to do to achieve them. While it can be nerve wrecking at times, it's good to know that someone cares to the extent that they will even snatch whatever they need to out of my hand.

While I've given myself permission to incorporate a moderate amount of red wine into this regime, I also veered from that a bit and had two mixed drinks (small ones at least) that had like 6 or 7 different ingredients (or more) which made it strong and sweet. It wasn't a total bust but this far into the game I need to be fighting for this.

I think that's it. For now.