It Doesn't Look Good on me!

I'm having a greedy moment people, please stand by.... It all started this weekend when I thought I owed it to myself for reaching a 31 pound weight loss. Well 2 brownies, 1 piece of pound cake, 1 lemon bar, 4 chocolates, two iced coffee drinks, 1 soda and a host of other crap later, I feel sick and sluggish and I can honestly say that it wasn't worth it. Its this type of thinking and indulgence that will put me right back to where I was at the start of the year and that's not where I want to be. As I start to get closer to my goal, I have to remember the reasons why I want to be healthy and thin(ner) so I don't get back to that chunky place. I sure hope I can shake this this thing because greed does not look good on me.

Knockin on 30's Door

So, my friend Heidi who is on a similar journey, inspired me to send you all an update as it relates to my weight loss/healthy living journey.

As you know I am a Weight Watcher and I have been since January. Its been going pretty well and I am happy to say that as of today, I am almost down 30 pounds. I'm inclined to go into details and tell you that I should have surpassed that already but why bother. This journey is just that, a journey. Sometimes I fall and sometimes things don't go as planned but rest assured I am focused and committed to the goal. I look great (if I do say so myself), I feel great, and I'm almost in a complete new wardrobe.

I've read somewhere before that one's goal should not be to just look good but truth be told I like looking good. As a matter of fact I love it. Not to mention I know I'm becoming healthier in the process. Well, there you have it, my story in a nutshell. Outside of the nutshell of course there are frustrations, tears and I even get tired but I'm not complaining because I'm knocking on 30's door. Go me!

80 Workouts Later

14 weeks and 80 workouts later, I've reached my first 20 pound weight loss goal! I was so excited when I looked at that scale this morning that I shed a tear and jumped for joy!!

5K Friday's

I signed up to "run" a 5k last week (the 1st of 5) that will take place in the month of April)and even though I've never "run" a 5k before, I promised myself that I would "run" at least one mile without stopping. Well, that one mile turned to two and those two miles turned into three point one, and 40 mins later I was done. I wasn't close to being 1st but I wasn't last, I was ahead of at least 100 people and that was exciting. I mean, who cares that the people I beat were either old, slow or people who never intended on running the thing in the 1st place.. LOL! (actually I don't really know) The good thing is, is that I started and I finished that was the goal.

I pushed my body beyond what I thought was capable and believe you me, I was hurt up for a few days. So much so that I decided not to do this weeks race and I'm ok with it. I was so exhausted last week that I think I will give my body a little break. (if that's what you wanna call it considering I've worked out like a beast this week) I may run one more before its all over and hopefully I will beat my time and 100 more folk.

To Eat or not to Eat...

I'm a hungry girl let's face it, that's why I'm fat. *eh em*, I mean phat. I eat when I want to for whatever reason I want to.I even had a dream that I had a donut the other day. Is that funny or what? Maybe sad. lol. Now however, I'm learning to control this thing called "hunger" and it's hard as h - e - double hockey sticks. I realized today that I wanted to eat something until I stopped for a second to ask myself why? I wasn't hungry. I just think I like to chew.(Moooooo)

I've been on my program for a total of 9 weeks and I've lost 12.2 pounds. I'm excited and I can't wait until I reach my (1st) goal of 20 pounds by the end of April. But if I'm really honest with you and myself, I must say that loosing weight is getting a little scary. I think about gaining it all back, I think about not being able to afford new clothes and I think about people possibly hating on me. It all freaks me out a little. But, I need to get over it and quick because this is a good thing. I've spent many a years doing things for others and I am happy to say that I am taking some control of my life and finally doing something for me, unapologetically.

Anyway, I am continuing to enjoy the journey. The road gets rough, but I don't feel like giving up. I may feel like eating a double cheeseburger, fries and a milk shake but I'm choosing not to right now. I'm choosing life.

The Journey, The Excitment!

I can honestly say that I'm enjoying this journey, this new healthy way of living. I'm enjoying my every day workouts, the new recipes, learning my body, what works and what doesn't. However, with each day comes a new challenge, and they've been good challenges. They're things that I won't complain about but am steadily learning from.

Coming up with ways to reward myself that doesn't involve food is my latest "challenge"
I hope to reach my first goal in the next couple of weeks and when I do I'm going for a massage, why not!? I lost a pound last week and celebrated by wearing a cute skirt to work. Once I shed more weight however, I may reward myself with a whole box of Hot Tamales, I love those things lol.....

Lastly, what I especially love is a few of the nick names I've been given. The name I gave myself is "p.h.a.t gurl" Pretty hot and tempting (of course). Another friend calls me "disappearing acts" which I love and lastly, my cousin calls me fly, fit and fat-free which I think is awesome!

Anyway, I've entered my sixth week of WW and I'm down a total of 7.6 pounds (can I just say 8? dang!) I’m psyched about my weekly weight losses and I'm anxious to visibly notice it so I can start buying shirts in the non plus size section. J

Till the next time.

I Just Can't Hide it!!!

I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it!!!!!!

I just finished my third week on Weight Watchers and I've lost 6 pounds......Woooo Hooooo!!!!!!

I was very nervous getting on the scale this morning and to my surprise I was down a little over 4 pounds for the week.. I was TOTALLY not expecting that. Nevertheless, I'll take it! I'm so encouraged!!! My hard work is paying off!!!!!!

1.6

6 ounces

My first week back on Weight Watchers was a good one. I stuck to the plan, I worked out and I weighed in today and lost 1.6 pounds. I was excited! I did however start to think about all that I could have done better, like not drink or eat that "lil somethin extra". But, then I immediately said to myself that this is how life is going to be so just roll with it. I knew I was going out on Friday, and I knew I was going to drink this weekend so why trip?

Anyway, I'm staying committed. That's the plan!

It's On!!!

Hey Gang! (I don't even think anybody reads this, but hey it's therapeutic nonetheless).

I am back on Weight Watchers!!! I am ending day two and its been good.. Ok, so I haven't gotten to that road yet where I will have to choose good health over a cake (a whole one) but I'll simply deal with each challenge, and each day as it comes....

Weight Watchers new motto which I LOVE is "Stop Dieting, and Start Living" isn't that great! I can tell you one thing I know for sure, and that is dieting gets you nowhere in the long run. Well, I can tell you what it gets me, weight loss in the short term and then weight gain in the long run. And, that weight gain always comes with a few extra friends. Why, I don't know?

I'm excited cause this is my time, (again) and as you know I have been living a life full of "agains" especially when it comes to weight loss, and living healthy. To me however, all of those "agains" is a sign of strength, it's me not giving up after I fall off the wagon (which I do more than you will ever know) :)

Slow and steady is the key and I need to constantly remind myself that on days I have to weigh in (Monday's are my days).

Anyway, I'm excited and look forward to tracking my progress with you. To really put myself out there, I'm gonna tell you how much I weighed in at yesterday. 233.4 pounds. WOW... Work it out phat (pretty hot and tempting) gurl!!!!